Monday, January 22, 2007

One thrilling afternoon..

It was 12:45 in the afternoon of today when I got a text message from Euvic informing me the requirements needed for the NCAE. After stating the requirements, he told me that the results for the UPCAT can already be seen online. Toog-doog-toog-doog, my heart started to beat so fast. I can feel the butterflies in my stomach that moment.

So many questions were running on my mind that time. Did I pass? In what course did I pass? In what campus have I been qualified? Did my cousin pass? Did my classmates pass as well? For more than five months now I have been waiting for the results. Finally I can already answer the questions I have in my mind.

I did not waste any time. I immediately told my brother who was using the computer to connect me to the internet and search for the UPCAT results. Without any questions, my brother obeyed me and immediately connected me to the internet. Finally, I was already connected to the internet. I then typed “UPCAT results 2007”. I clicked the first result that showed but it stated “page cannot be found”. I tried and tried clicking the other results but still nothing appeared. Probably it was because of the internet connection. Fortunately, I have found the site already. I hurriedly typed my name. But again, because of the some internet problems I guess, it took me so long to wait for the results. Out of impatience, I disconnected the internet connection. I was thinking that I will still be able to know if I passed or not even if I have not seen the site. But still, I cannot help but think about the results. I needed to know the results. So I decided to call my mom who was in the office. I asked her if she could do the searching for me. She said she could do it only after her class. So I was even nervous more. I then informed my cousin who is living in Bulacan and who also took the UPCAT that results can already be seen. I also asked my close friend Gabby if she passed. She told me that she is still searching and that waiting for the results is taking a lot of time. She also told me that she will look for my name after she will see hers. We kept on updating each other. She would call me and I would call her also.

For an hour of waiting for the results, I fell asleep. I then woke up because of Gabby’s call. She told me that it was still loading and that she will just call me again. After that call, my cousin sent me a text message telling me that I passed the UPCAT. I did not know how to react then but I shouted. I tried not to believe first so that I would not be disappointed in case I did not pass but asked her if she was sure and in what way did she know. She told me she searched in the internet and that I passed at UP Cebu with the course BS Business Management. I was so happy and shouted for joy. I then called Gabby and informed her about the news. She congratulated me.

My dad was so happy. I called my mom and informed her. The people in the house were all happy for me. But I was a bit disappointed because I was not able to pass my first choice, BA Mass Communication. Instead, I passed with my second choice, BS Business Management. But then I realized Business Management is a good course. Better than Mass Communication I guess. I could do nothing about it anymore. It is the will of God after all. Anyway what is important is that I passed and it is all because of the help of God.

the Freedom of Expression..

I have been a UP student or UPian for four years now. And I have always been proud about it. Being able to study in a prestigious university is an achievement for me. When I passed at the High School Admission Test at UP, I was very glad and excited as well.

There were actually different reactions from people we knew when they found out I will be studying at UP. Some said that I must be intelligent, knowing that the university offers a high quality of education. Others rejoiced with us because we need not have to pay tuition fees. But then a few said that I might become rebellious and join other UP students rallying on the streets like what we see now.

Students from the University of the Philippines are known for being intelligent, outspoken and REBELLIOUS, yes rebellious. No matter how proud I am to be a UPian, I cannot help but become embarrassed at times. It is because of this rebellious thing. No matter what I do, I cannot hide the fact that UPians are known for this one. I mean it is so evident. We could frequently see them rallying on the streets, putting up posters and banners which attack the government and even having themselves being interviewed in the television. They are really exercising their freedom of speech or expression.

Most of the time, the subject of their attacks and protests is the government or the school management. They say that the government is corrupt and that the officials should be ousted from their positions. Recently, students from UP Diliman are protesting because of the 300% tuition fee increase. They also air out what they feel towards what is happening around us without being embarrassed on what other people will say. But honestly, I think there are instances wherein what they do should not be done although they also have points at times. Sometimes I question myself why do they keep on attacking the government. Why do they keep on protesting on the actions of the government?

The University of the Philippines is a state university, owned and funded by the government. Isn’t it ironic to see a state university stacking and protesting against the government? Is this what the government should get in return? No wonder why there are some politicians who would want to crash out the UP budget because of how the students are acting. I really have nothing against these people who do the attacking and it does not mean that I side the government too but I think they have to think twice if what they would want to protest about is worth protesting or is it just for publicity purposes or just to maintain their rebellious images. They keep on complaining on the corruption going on the government but have they thought of a way of thinking if corruption was also going on within themselves as well.

I believe that the freedom of speech is a gift that is supposed to be used in the right way.

Is it a vocation or just a fad?

Ask any fourth year graduating student on what course would he or she take for college and most of them would definitely answer – Nursing.

Let us admit it, Nursing has been one of the most enrolled courses here in the Philippines. It is because of its easy access in going abroad because of its high demand as well. People could easily earn dollars from it. Parents nowadays force their child to choose Nursing as a course thinking that it would surely be a solution to their financial problems. They are even willing to spend very high tuition fees just for the sake of taking up the course. Doctors even take up Nursing too just to go abroad.

I would be a hypocrite if I would say that I did not dream of becoming rich. I have always been, coming from a family whose parents just have a humble income. I have always been wanting to earn a big amount of money to help my parents with our needs. But if this would be my prime reason to take up the course, I will never do it.

I have always believed that happiness is not a matter of destiny but a matter of choice and that I would only be happy if I choose things that would make me happy. I think being a nurse is a job that requires one to really have a big heart to care for those who are sick. I am sad to say that I do not have that big heart. It is not that I do not care for the sick people but that I just cannot see myself doing it. Meaning, it is not what I want to do in life. It is not what I am imagining to do when I grow up. It is not my passion. It is not what makes me happy in short.

When I will become a nurse, I will be exposed to blood, wounds and those other kinds of stuff. I, personally freak out when I see these things. I just cannot stand touching it or even looking at it for a long time especially those things that I see on television when people are being brought to the emergency room. I also get to be exposed to various kinds of diseases since I will be working in a hospital. I just cannot imagine myself doing it.

Yes, I could get so many benefits when I choose the course. I would surely be able to get a big amount of money, provide the needs of my family and can easily go abroad as well. But in the end I would not be happy about it because it is not my choice.

I hope that the students who would be taking up Nursing will think twice if it is really what they want to do in life. It should be their passion. I pity those who are just forced by their parents to take it up. I wish you could do something about it. Always remember that happiness is always a matter of choice.